At the age of 28 I was diagnosed with a borderline malignancy (aka. ovarian cancer of low malignant potential) and although I didn’t need any type of chemotherapy, a radical hysterectomy was the prescribed preventative measure. I realized that God had given me three beautiful children while I was young, because He knows all things, and what a blessing that was now.
From the time I found the hard mass in my stomach that sent me to the doctor’s office, through each event; when the doctor sensed an urgency and scheduled emergency exploratory surgery, after that surgery when he told us they’d taken out an ovary and the football sized tumor attached to it, the testing of which showed a borderline malignancy, and 3 months later when I went in for more tests to prep for a hysterectomy and found out that I was 4 months pregnant (and yes! That means I had been pregnant during the exploratory surgery), through the birth of our healthy and perfect forth child to the day of my hysterectomy. Through all of it God had given me a peace that surpasses all understanding (Phil. 4:7) I mean it, a REAL PEACE that is incomprehensible. I remember how scared my husband was and the fear I saw in my mother-in-laws eyes. But God had KEPT ME in peace. ME, the girl who despised going to the doctor and had an unreasonable fear of needles. I had very little trepidation about any of it. I had even looked forward to ‘getting PMS surgically removed’ and being the better for it! That was a complete change of character that only God could perform!
It is now almost 20 years later. I cannot say that every trial I have encountered since that time has been as peaceful and calm for me. There have been many mountain top highs and valley lows through the years. Though God has seen me through every valley just as He did so many years ago, I have not endured them all as faithfully as He. At times I didn’t have my eyes as fixed upon our Savior as I once did. During these seasons even the smallest of hiccups could have set me of course.
So, why is it that sometimes we can almost feel Him surround us with His wings and shelter us from the dark places and other times we feel like there is a great chasm between us and Him and we don’t know how to close in?
Do me a favor and grab your coffee cup or water bottle, whatever you’re sipping on, and put it at the end of your table. Then put a pencil or some little thing in the middle of the table. Now, look at your drink, focus in on just it. notice how everything else fades into your peripheral view becoming blurry? But, if you focus on that small item you put in the center of the table your drink becomes blurry and out of focus, right? Jesus is like that drink. He should be our main focus in life. But when we get our eyes off of Him and focus on our struggles or trials He becomes smaller and out of focus and our problem becomes bigger, more emanant and more in focus! Where are your eyes and heart focused?
Psalm 121:1-2 I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills, from whence cometh my help. My help cometh from the Lord, which made heaven and earth. and Psalm 123:1 Unto Thee lift I up mine eyes, O thou that dwellest in the heavens. These verses make me think of that old hymn, “Turn Your Eyes Upon Jesus.” Have you ever heard it? The first stanza goes like this: “Turn you eyes upon Jesus, Look full in His wonderful face, And the things of earth will grow strangely dim in the light of His glory and grace.” And Oh! How true these words are! When we have a proper focus in life, making the Main Thing the main thing, all else seems to fall into place. Matthew 6:33 But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and His righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.
How, you ask, do we look upon Jesus when we cannot see Him? By delving into the Word! John 1:14 And the Word was made flesh, and dwelt among us, (and we beheld His glory, the glory as of the only begotten of the Father,) full of grace and truth. Psalm 119:165 says, Great peace have they that love thy law: and nothing shall offend them. God’s word is the key here! Not only does it protect us as a full body shield but it also keeps us from being offended. (Offended-the common day definition for this is to irritate or annoy or make angry; but the biblical definition is a little different and changes the perspective when reading this verse. The Strong’s Concordance defines the word offend as “cause to stumble.” Now, read the verse with this meaning in mind.) Great peace (a perfect calm) have they that love thy law (not those who keep the law but those who study to know and follow it) and nothing shall offend them (nothing shall cause them to stumble because they abide in the Light).
Dear friend, are you searching for peace? If you are a Christian, that peace is yours already. I encourage you to take His yoke upon you and trade in your burden for His peace! This will change your life! If you have never accepted Christ as your Savior and don’t identify with being a Christian but would like to learn how you too can have great peace, please click here.
Thank you for stopping by today. I sure hope this has been an encouragement to your heart. If you have a prayer request or question about what you read today I’d love to hear from you!
Thou will keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on Thee. Isaiah 26:3a